Jason Chen | Still In Love
It’s 3 am and my mother is still up doing work. She’s needs to wake up at 6:30. BLESSED. My pops gets home at around 10. Passes out on the couch in less than 10 min because he’s so exhausted. He wakes up at 5 am almost every morning. BLESSED.
There’s always these moments when as you’re doing something you question it and ask why. In the moment, it’s tough to see the bigger picture. You only see what’s in front of you until it suddenly just clicks. Usually afterwards but sometimes during. You realize it’s all happening for a reason. The struggle was necessary for you to get to where you are right now. The experiences you went through made it worth it.
This semester has been an interesting one. I wasn’t in school but was busy with work. So I was still a bit productive with my time. But watching everyone around me constantly studying and focusing on school couldn’t help but make me feel like I was wasting my time. One semester’s worth to be exact. If I went to school, I could have graduated a semester earlier. I could have found a (hopefully) good job a semester earlier. I could have moved on to the next chapter of my life a semester earlier. Time’s a precious thing and it’s something I clearly don’t want to waste.
Today, as I look back onto 2013 so far, I can definitely say that this semester wasn’t a waste of time. Being able to clear my head and get the right mindset was so crucial for me. My priorities were all over the place and my mentality wasn’t right. I’ll admit that I still don’t have everything sorted out but I can say that I’m moving in the right direction. Also, being able to help my parents out and lessen their burden was something that made it worth it. Like many other parents, my parents work extremely hard and do whatever they can to provide for me and my sister. I realize I take them for granted at times and don’t recognize how blessed I am to have them in my life. What a joy it was to be able to help them out, even if it was just a little bit. All in all, I didn’t get any book smarter but I do think I got a bit wiser. The struggles of this year so far have really put things in a different perspective for me. The bigger picture isn’t as hard to see anymore. Also, my motivation to get to where I want to be is at a high. Once you put yourself in the shoes of your parents and witness firsthand what their struggles are like, motivation isn’t something that you lack. It was a truly humbling experience to get a glimpse of what they walk through everyday.
If everything goes according to plan, I’ll be taking classes again starting in two weeks and hopefully have a new job soon too. Still on the hunt for something better than my current job. I’m excited for what’s to come. I can definitely see big things happening in the near future. All that’s left for me to say now is.. to just keep grinding. It may be tough to see now, but it’ll be worth it. Make your parents proud. They love you and deserve to be happy through your success.